What is the biggest life changing moment in a woman’s life? At what point does her world tilt on its axis and become more than it once was? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!
Panic isn’t the best reaction in the world but for lack of creativity I chose that one. What is the right reaction when you pee on a stick and with no delay it shows positive? I was already deluding myself about being late on my period, that maybe it was a freak coincidence, that space aliens shot me with a beam of light to cause me to skip, that “oh, I work out so darn much I am skipping a month.” BULLSHIT! I have never skipped a period in my life! I sure ain’t going to start now. No, the rampant fertility in my family and Jaime’s has come back to bite us in the ass. We were using condoms….mostly.
I can already see the look on my aunts face when I arrive in July and she goes into nurse-mode. She will, I’m sure. It’s not a bad thing really. I just might feel like a teenager caught skipping class. In her defense, she is the best aunt in the world and has been very supportive of me and my mom through the years and our health challenges.
And then there is my mom…. “Happy Mothers Day” she said. I could never get a rise out of her before…..and I still can’t.
My dad, haven’t told him yet. I never will forget the mantra I grew up hearing from him. “Don’t get married, don’t have kids!” Sorry dad I kinda launched that idea to the moon…
So what now? I’m too old to adopt the kid out, and I have enough time, energy and (hopefully) money on my side to be a good momma. It’s probably going to be hard. I’m probably going to feel frustrated, sad, happy….you get the idea. The best part of all is I am not alone, I have Jesus and my fiancée. This wasn’t planned but I’ll go with it. As for my travel adventures…..no worries, I just can’t be quite so crazy for 9 or 10 months. When he or she is beyond day and night feeding I’ll be good to go!! I am going to raise the healthiest (organic), smartest (bilingual) most wonderful (blessing from God) child you or I can imagine!! This will be a multicultural, multilingual and interesting life experiment.